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An Angel's Journey [link]
poem from my darling

It has been a long journey to get where she is,
Walking in this darkness for so many years,
Lost in the shadows of her twisted mind,
Reliving the pain, that she was unable to leave behind,
So this darkness became her world; a blanket of a sort

In her world of darkness she stands on a cliff,
Looking out at the waves as they dance in the sea,
She remembers how she got here,
Remembering how it used to be,

Believing here she was safe from harm
Where no one could touch her heart,
Losing her inside this world;
It became a sanctuary for her soul;

Darkness brought a quiet and silence
That was need at that horrid time,
A place to quiet all the violence
In her desolate and miserable life,

Here in her mind, she would run and hide,
Disappearing from those who were,
Leaving bruises, cuts and marks,
As they beat upon her tender flesh,
Here is where she would come
When they violated her so violently
Going deeper into her mind,
As they used her so endlessly,

As the years took their told on this Angel here
She kept refuge in her dark world,
Because the abuse, rape and sadism,
She could no longer bear,
Here she made a world, where she lived alone,
Nothing her she thought she feared,
This kingdom in the darkness was her home.

In the real world, she tried to wear a mask,
Even though it constantly cracked,
Then there was shield and armor,
And they got wore down too,
A sword that was supposed to protect her,
Was no longer of any use
It seemed her life would never be hers,
She would always feel this doom,

Yet what helped her to cope was being
There for them,
The ones who have bared the pain
That she herself still feels within,
Drinking in their anguish,
Feeding on their grief,
Taking it all in so they could
Have some peace,

In return she gave them kindness from
The heart
Showing compassion and care without a
Second thought
Wiping away their tears, as she held them
In her arms,
Listening to all their pain and sorrow,
Giving them unconditional love,

She became a beacon of hope
To those whose hearts she touched,
Never taking a moment to think of herself,
This became her mission in life,
A goal that came from her heart,
To always be there for all who came her way,
A true Angel of Light,

Still there was the kingdom
That dark place in her mind,
Where she kept hiding all that
Was truly inside,
All her pain and tears that she
Would never shed became to much
For even her to bare,

So standing on this ragged cliff,
She thought of giving up,
To end her worthless life,
Releasing herself from the nightmares
That plague her every thought,
Letting her soul finally fly and be free,
To finally be an Angel she is supposed to be,

Holding the sword in her hand,
Her hand tightens on its hilt,
Bring up the blade, to drain
the essence of her life,
Her hand stays for a moment,
As she looks out at the sea,
She hears a voice echoing around
Her, and wonders who it can be,

Looking all around for the voice she heard,
Panic sets in her mind, for who could invade
Her realm,
Who could be in her dark kingdom,
Her private sanctuary,
Who could this stranger be?

She looks all behind her,
No one is there,
She looks to both sides,
No shadows or bodies as well,
Then she looks over the edge.
To the ocean below,
And sees a reflection of a woman
Staring at her from below,

She sees a woman so beautiful,
Full of strength and life,
Dark hair the was as shiny and silky,
Softness in her deep dark brown eyes,
That completely pulled you in,
A smile like an Angel,
From soft and tender lips,
Lips you dream to kiss

Then she heard her speak again,
With her musical and soothing voice,

"Put down the blade
Why do this to yourself,
Look at the woman you truly are
Deep within your soul,
Look past the pain and anguish
That has plagued you thus far,
See the woman in this reflection,
This is who you truly are,

A woman full of passion,
A woman with a gentle heart,
One who doesn't ask for anything,
But is there for everyone,
A woman of compassion,
One who really cares,
It doesn't matter who they are,
Your arms are always there,

I know why you created this world,
This dark kingdom in your mind,
You wanted to leave and protect
Yourself from their brutal crimes,
But ending your life is not the way
For then they will win,

It is time for you to come out,
Into the world,
Show them who you are,
There is strength inside you,
That has gotten you this far,
So don't give up on who you
Have become,
Let yourself free and be the
Woman you are meant to be,

Figure it out my Angel,
Before you end your life,
See the power inside you,
See what you truly are,
For I know the answer,
It has always been there,
I know you may doubt me,
Yet I know the truth,
For I am the one inside you,
Who knows you better than you,


The words she heard truly hit her heart,
And they seemed hard to believe,
Yet she stared at the reflection that
Of the woman in the sea,
At the beauty the stood before,
A graceful and strong Angel
Is what she sees,

Standing up and looking at the sky,
She puts her sword away,
Something opened up inside her,
All these feelings she's held at bay,
Finally understanding the message
That she was sent,

She stands and looks around,
Staring up at the black sky,
Seeing a glimmer of light
That was never there before,
She knows it is time to leave,
This dark realm of hers,
Time to bask in the moonlight
To live life again,

She finally knows the answer,
And understands what was said,
Then a smile comes to her lips,
As she whispers the words aloud,
Love was the answer all along,
Love is her strength,
How she survived the pain in her heart,

Love is who she is; what she is made of,
Because to go through the nightmares
Of her life and to survive for so long,
Love is what she offers to all and
Everyone, being there for them
No matter what the cause,

Holding her head up,
Spreading her wings,
She takes flight for better
And beautiful things,
For finally she is free…